I'm having a good time... I'm out of control...
Don't Stop Me Now, I'm on an obsessive compulsive Freddie Mercury binge.
And you probably couldn't stop me now, even if you wanted, because on more occasions than I like to admit, I find myself hyper-focused on one thing until it takes over. Let me take you down this rabbit hole as I share my obsession du jour, Freddie Mercury. Explore the triggers, inner-conflicts and fluctuations of my peculiar behavior. If you get bored, skip ahead to the end, it's always the best part.
Don't Stop Me Now photo from Rockin and Blogin
Prelude to the Obsession
Long ago, I was the number one "Leyla Arsan" on the internet and I liked it at the top. When I slipped from number one to number two, I tried, but was unsuccessful at regaining my ranking - the other "Leyla Arsan" was too powerful. This put me in a state of obsessive self Googling, I searched my name until I could search no more, and finally, I decided to confront my problem.
Against everyone's advise, I decided to contact the other "Leyla Arsan" - the one who outranked me in search results. I was fortunate and received a response from this other Leyla Arsan, her reply quenched my thirst and was able to move on (if you'd like to read the original letter, a transcription can be found in the post here). To diminish the volume of obsessive thought about a subject is to seek an outlet, or find a path, to exercise the subject from the brain.Yield to the temptation.
Obsession with Untimely Deaths
I think many of us obsess over celebrities who died too soon. However, for the past few months, or maybe a year or two, it's hard to keep track of time when you're having such a good time and you don't want to stop at all, my obsessions have centered around men (mostly musicians) from the 70s who passed before their time.
Frank Zappa - Sheik Yerbouti
Frank Zappa leads the way, he's more of a reoccurring theme, maybe because his son and my brother share the same name (Ahmet). Whenever I am feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders, I listen to Bobby Brown and the satirical lyrics lift my spirits almost immediately. Hearing the emphasis on the line "got a job doin' radio promo" makes me giggle. Why did Zappa choose radio promotions for Bobby's profession? Having known only one person with that title, I think I understand.
Warren Zevon from some dude's livejournal
When Californication was released on Netflix, I re-watched all seven seasons in about three days (let me refresh your memory here). Warren Zevon's music is played frequently throughout the series because, according to David Duchovny (why don't you love me), Zevon was his touchstone for Hank's rock & roll alter ego. That was when I drifted into my Warren Zevon moment and held on to that moment for a while. While in the throws of my Zevon obsession, I uncovered many interesting things, like the episode of David Letterman dedicated to Mr. Zevon, and one afternoon while cleaning my apartment, I randomly stumbled upon a surprising cover of Carmelita by GG Allin.
Freddie Mercury, My Current Obsession
That leads us to my present state, a mindful concentration on Freddie Mercury. Unlike the aforementioned, I grew up listening to Queen. I was eight when Another One Bites The Dust was released and clearly recall being tickled by the parody Another One Rides The Bus by Weird Al Yankovich. I also remember kids playing the record backwards to decipher a hidden message, something that was quite popular at the time. My brothers and I ruined a good number of records and broke many needles on my dad's record player trying to play records backwards. Yet we never found any hidden messages about satanism or drugs like we had hoped.
Michael Jackson and Freddie Mercury
Don't Stop Me Now, I'm Having a Ball Obsessing
I can't be certain how the Freddie Mercury obsession started, or when it will end, but I think the more recent playlist I created "Wake Up Leyla!" (music to help me get out of bed) may have triggered the ascent from healthy curiosity to compulsive thinking. Don't Stop Me Now and only three other songs are on that playlist, so I hit repeat about 100 times each morning. I probably should add more songs but I can't think of anything else that motivates me as much. I'm open to suggestion, your comments are welcomed.
Apparently I've given up on crediting these photos
Oh well, they're probably public domain anyway
Oh well, they're probably public domain anyway
Who Needs Sleep? Let's Keep Obsessing
I knew that Farrokh Bulsara, was born in Zanzibar, that he was a handsome singer, songwriter, showman, and the lead singer of Queen. But despite the fact that I was 19 when he died, I realized that I knew little about Freddie Mercury or his accomplishments - and absolutely nothing about his religion, Zoroastrianism. Saturday night I spent several hours listening to Queen while looking through photos and reading articles about Freddie Mercury. The fascination continued when I woke up six hours later, and still continues as I write this post.
Freddie Mercury was an exceptional talented. He performed with the Royal Ballet, collaborated with the Spanish opera singer Montserat Cabelle, and his Live Aid performance was described as one of the most memorable, that he "dominated" the stadium (don't take my word for it, this guy will tell you why Freddie Mercury will never be forgotten).
There are numerous stories about Mercury's flamboyant lifestyle and the extreme partying - he was a man with an insatiable appetite for excessive behaviors. A sex machine ready to explode. No judgements here. Mercury was also described by many as a kind and "beautiful person" - inside and out.
The story that stuck with me most had nothing to do with his success or his overly animated lifestyle. I was drawn to a more intimate story, the story about the person that Mercury met when he was dirt poor, the only person he trusted for the duration of his fame, and the person who was beside him at the end. Mary Austin - his lifelong friend, the inspiration behind the song "Love of My Life" (among others) and the heir to the bulk of his fortune. Read more about Mary Austin here.
Don't Stop Me Now - Let's Close the Loop on this Obsessive Compulsive Behavior
If you have not figured it out by now, I've been quoting a Queen song throughout this post - Don't Stop Me Now. When I started listening to the song on repeat a few weeks back, I listened to the lyrics very carefully. And then more carefully. And then I got to the point where I could virtually see Mercury snorting lines of cocaine as he wrote each line of the song - like a hologram in my brain.
I could visualize it so clearly, I wanted to bring the song to life through my eyes but I have zero graphic design skills, or any artistic ability whatsoever. It is impossible for me to depict anything that is in my head in a visual fashion, all I gots is words and them aren't so good either. My next thought was to interpret the song through a collection of curated visuals (like Neil Patrick Harris doing cocaine off a stripper's butt in Harold and Kumar), to build a collage of images that would depict the song Don't Stop Me Now. I could see the pieces coming together but couldn't quite pull it off.
Neil Patrick Harris from Harold and Kumar
He Doesn't Want to Stop at ALL!
As I was searching for images to put into my Freddie Mercury collage, I realized that I was not the first person who had attempted to bring Freddie Mercury back to life via graphic design. I found Pablo Stanley, and lucky for me, this guy IS an artist! Pablo Stanley's animated version of the Queen song "Don't Stop Me Now" is what you see below. Good job Pablo!
Pablo Stanley Don't Stop Now
Thanks for defying the laws of gravity with me and reading my super long blog post... like Lady Godiva. See you on the other side Mr. Fahrenheit.