Insomnia: my oldest friend and foe
I don't sleep much, they say it is a problem I've been plagued with for as long as I've been alive. But as someone who has always preferred darkness over light, I often ask myself, why does the sun need to rise anyway?
A Perfectly Still Night in Milan, Italy
Certain mornings I will wake up before the sun. It may only be 5 am or 6 am but I'm wide awake and fully alert, even though I only went to sleep a few hours earlier. On those peculiar pre-dawn mornings, for reasons I cannot explain, I usually feel alive, inspired, creative, challenged, and full of energy - almost like I am in-tune with the rhythms of the night (but not to the beat of the rhythm of the night). It is on those mornings, when everything is still and dark and it feels so perfect, I ask myself, why does the sun have to rise anyway?
I still in that stillness for a while and the thoughts race in my head. And then I think about it for a minute too long and I ruin it...
Because we would all die without the sun, Leyla, that's why! We need sunlight for crops and food. Animals need sun too. The planet would get colder & colder, we'd freeze! And people would get depressed, they need light and vitamin D! There would be more crime, murders, anarchy! It would be like that movie, the Night of the Living Dead or the one where they get a 24 hour pass to commit heinous crimes....
It continues like this for a while until I silence it with a blog post, or vodka. This is why I try not to think too often.